I am having........and, and, and.......

**Kassy** · August 23rd, 2004, 11:25 PM

I am having, or feeling in the middle of a meltdown.
I had a GLORIOUS weekend with my hubby in Maine with my parents for 4 days this week and weekend.
Having said that.....
back to reality today.....2 more people have left the liquor store, we are already on a skeleton crew..........me , working my normal days off (wed, and thurs).......
No days off til we fill the slots.
Also, well, i feel i need to "focus" on my pending surgery which takes place Sept 3 , at 7:30 am.
The pain is beyond unbearable, i am , well i guess overwhelmed, and just, out of sorts.
My husband, is my world.
My career is my world.
And my health is unknown.
I shall try to remain positive, but........ughhhhhhhh, i just.. .i dunno.
To those of you who i am close with, know i love you....but forgive me for not posting until after the surgery.
I just gotta make the most of what i've got for now........selfish?? maybe......but it's what i need.
I just gotta go be me for awhile, til they figure out what is wrong.
~wipes a tear~........and heads off.........
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*Olivia* · August 23rd, 2004, 11:43 PM

Kassy sweet woman....you are always in my thoughts, i know your troubles are very very real and while there's little anyone can do about it all, we can be here supporting you in our quiet way....great energy is being sent to you from afar

you face so much with courage and strength and that is the key to it all, i've never seen you sink into self pity and i have to so greatly admire that...you remind me of someone else i know who faces health issues with, as he says, his glass half full and always knowing where the pitcher is to keep it topped up *S*

you are in my heart, in my thoughts...i wish i could sometimes do more than tell you that or show you that....and as for you being selfish, i've never ever seen that side of you...but if that's what you call taking time for yourself and your life...hell go ahead and do that because right now what is most important is you and getting to the bottom of it all...to understanding and relieving the pain you deal with

big hugs

Fi

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